Tarran

in the twilight zone

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 10:52:49 GMT

I've exited the real world.. the purpose of the journey went horribly wrong.. the journey itself was grand as always.. and still a bit of a ways on that last stretch.. sometimes it feels like forever. sometimes I realize how little of time it really is..

Today, every second being so far from her, is an eternity

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 12:22:02 GMT

every journey has a point, when no more words are left to speak, when one gets up and begins. When one takes thier first step, and starts down thier path.

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 01:36:40 GMT

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 13:55:30 GMT

Its raining and people tell me its cold, but damned if I can tell.. feels like its about 70o-72o, and folks say its more like 55o-60o.. feels pretty nice.. reminds me of the fall in Minnasota.. minus the cornfields and the amish.

some wierd thought that came to my mind

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 09:33:14 GMT

imgaine two people that were so comfortable with themselves as individuals are were so much a couple, that they changed sexes to explore one another as the other gender

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 05:51:44 GMT

within the darkness.. she whispers to me.. calling unto me as if from some distant dream.. in the night.. her touches.. light as the shadows cast by the fleeing sun..
becon.. embrace me.. comfort me from the chills of the days passing.. her love surrounds me.. welcoming me home.. amongst those of the night..

dance at its height

Sat, 09 Aug 2003 19:46:17 GMT

http://www.capoeirista.com/faq.html?question=1

randomness

Sat, 09 Aug 2003 19:36:14 GMT

http://www.jmlaroche.com/images/spider_knife_l.jpg
http://www.minerals.net/mineral/oxides/hematite/hematite.htm
http://www.knifeart.com/knifeart/index.html
http://www.capoeiraarts.com/

shtuff from the outter rim

Fri, 08 Aug 2003 21:01:01 GMT

http://www.house.gov/paul/congrec/congrec2003/cr071003.htm

thought

Fri, 08 Aug 2003 20:18:24 GMT

The primary flaw in the unification of the US as a chrisitian nation is the reality experienced by right wing christiandom. It is the inability to experience outside of a given mind-set/personal universe. In the given personal reality, experiences follow given lines. One experience leads to another, and to another, thusly, such and such a series of actions and events will cause those of that mind-set to react and join in paticular manners. The socia-cultural reaction will only occur for those living that paticular reality. The fundimental flaw does not allow for the diversity of reason and lines of logic found in such a wide culture. Series of events to not lead to given conclusions as the fundimentalist believes, and may very well lead to apposing conclusions or even a sence of disjointed actions/occurances

Fri, 04 Jul 2003 03:19:34 GMT

Spectyr says 'heh...i'm retarded'

Katriel councils 'bruce is frigid'

Pachomius junks a claw ring.
Pachomius junks long, sharp fingernails.
Pachomius junks heart of the Dumahim vampire.
Pachomius junks head of the Dumahim vampire.
Pachomius junks long, sharp fingernails.
Pachomius junks a pair of fangs.
Pachomius junks long, sharp fingernails.
Pachomius junks a claw ring.
Pachomius junks a bloody dagger.
Pachomius junks a claw ring.
Pachomius junks a pair of fangs.
Pachomius junks a scroll of recall.
Pachomius junks long, sharp fingernails.
Pachomius junks long, sharp fingernails.
Pachomius junks a scroll of recall.
Pachomius junks a scroll of recall.
Pachomius junks a bag.
Pachomius junks a shaolin robe.
Pachomius junks the rusty belt.
Pachomius junks an iron sphere.
Pachomius junks a brass box.
Pachomius junks a jug of Shaolin Shine.
Pachomius junks a silver choker.
Pachomius junks a silver choker.
Pachomius junks a pair of bifocals.
Pachomius tells the group 'opps'

Hugh chats 'I am such a dumbass'

StrykeN chats 'Hey Raoh Your an idiot'
Raoh chats 'i know this already why you have to remind me im having fun G'

Mifwyp chats 'Haha i'm stupid'

[ High-Elf ] Emeryld people should read HELP RULES

Maxim chats 'man my dad is on crack'
Omni chats 'well that explains you then don't it'

Samael chats 'I'm slow!

Jiv chats 'i have a girlfriend...but my cat poked a hole in her and she wont inf
late anymore'

A dead soldier hits the ground ... DEAD.

Rizzo chats 'i have the mental capacid of 3rd grader'

Sarhan cchats 'treason, paying women for pleasure is not considered dating'

The guildmaster nods in recognition to a mosquito.
The guildmaster states 'You are just a fledgling barbarian. Be careful and work
hard.'

[ Illithid ] Lex yummy brain, sticky spongy head jelly

Hannibal chats 'where is this death trap near mg that takes u to solace i forget
'

Someone chats 'of course not...in order to cheat, you have to break rules. Since we make the
rules, nothing is cheating for us :)'

You tell Etoh 'hope you don't mind.. I'm telling arny that you're arty's alt :)'
Etoh tells you 'oh great :) now I'm dead :P'

Daiko tells you 'plz dont hate me, i love you'

Rizzo mchats 'im not gonna lie to ya im a little drunk'
Dokar mchats 'As were your parents

Artemis councils 'and stop acting like you have a stick up your ass'
Artemis councils 'btw, did you fix hawke'
Saint councils 'no, i was busy playing with the stick up my ass'
Saint councils 'you'll always be my boyfriend..i'm just seeing the stick on the
side'

Rico chats 'Oh sure, steal her away before I deliver the punchline of my joke.
Krilyn tells you 'wanna see me try something stupid?'

The gloucester patrolman is here, fighting someone who left??

[39 Human Mon] Takimine-Gimmie Back My Channels You Fascist Pig

Info> Kriltorin killed by the vagabond!
Kriltorin chats 'help'
Kriltorin chats 'or not '

Jerome chats 'And the coven penalty is they share ctell with Gundam'
Jerome chats 'And Ktash penalty is they share ctell with Silvara'
Yorick chats 'and are you the Shaolin penalty? :P'

Info> Blazarath has met an untimely fate!
Aatakinty chats 'Swim Fatass, Swim'

Calibas chats 'my first time i think psipher transed me and screwed around with
me till i beat on my keyboard and my computer went blank'

Rizzo yells 'you would be in trouble if i was 40'
Rizzo yells 'and ogion was here'
Rizzo yells 'and boyer'

Rezael tells you 'i love u.'

Info> Boyer killed by the cardboard box!

Maxim tells you 'I want to be complete'.

Artemis councils 'if it had a pulse at one time its a sexual partner'

shtuff

Sun, 29 Jun 2003 17:45:00 GMT

I'm sore.. my body hurts in all sorts of places.. more work today.. the thing of it is.. I'm wayyyy content.. damned good work

work

Wed, 25 Jun 2003 23:03:47 GMT

Fence is finished.. have a shed, and the front yard left.. to build.. can you say.. hot a sweaty?

shtuff and things

Tue, 24 Jun 2003 00:17:03 GMT

I think.. that its almost time for a hella bar-b-que.. real food.. lots of shtuffed people.. little kids smiling pudgily upon the floor.. ect.. ect

something from the box

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 21:12:59 GMT

http://www.talkorigins.org/faqs/faq-transitional.html

woo

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 20:17:45 GMT

woop.. my little brother is coming tomarrow.. *dances* with my future sister in law

random words

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 21:58:33 GMT

Vil: one time. i ate a gerbil. out of a garden hose. that was spraying cheese everywhere.
Dave: I want to go like my grandfather did, peacefully in his sleep.. and not like his passengers
Stainless_Steel: What kind of a sicko would put this on a Howitzer - Caution, Keep out of reach of children

Caution - Keep Remaining Eye Away From Laser
The Two most common elements in the universe. Hydrogen & Stupidity

http://www.despair.com/
http://homepages.nildram.co.uk/~jimella/laws01.htm
http://members.tripod.com/~Wookett/Wierd.html
http://users.ox.ac.uk/~shil0124/jokes/laws.html

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 01:00:09 GMT

I miss communial bathing..

btw.. your visually oriented culture sucks..

Random shtuff

Thu, 19 Jun 2003 18:19:54 GMT

http://www.thingsmygirlfriendandihavearguedabout.com/
http://www.theonion.com
http://www.maylin.net/Fireworks.html
http://www.newsoftheweird.com/
http://amasci.com/weird/const.html
http://www.amasci.com/news.html
http://www.weeniebabies.com/
http://www.pmichaud.com/toast/
http://www.pmichaud.com/grape/
http://home.southwind.net/~mrscienc/boom.html
http://www-personal.umich.edu/~bclee/lens.html
http://www.superlaugh.com/1/wfact.htm
http://www2.hi.net/s4/strangebreed.htm
http://sbt.bhmedia.com/

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 22:00:56 GMT

Does my scent track.. do you taste the concept.. are the shapes from my auditory spatial enough for you

Knowlege of varing degrees of perception does not equal awareness of the natural state of that being.

Universalism is the belief, that while there may be different words, that in essence, the value.. the meaning, the concept, remains the same..
Universalism says, "If we all just got together, we would discover, that all these different languages, are saying the very same thing, that you are thinking my thoughts, that you are experiencing life in the same conceptual manner in which I do, that my experiences translate to you and yours to mine"

Jashaen is the point where two ways of life, two ways of being, two mind-sets from different individuals or different cultures meet.
It is the misunderstandings, the misconceptions that occur.. where one individual or one culture assumes that the others values coincide with the formers. it is the manner in which one sees the others orientation of structures as the same, the manner in which one, in relating to the other, believes that the word/action/language of the other, speaks the same undercurrent as themselves

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 21:41:13 GMT

perceptions come in many different qualities.. where one individual may see just a flat surface, there may be grooves and valleys to another.. The amount of degree between one distinction and another, varies between people..

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 16:50:32 GMT

There are times, when I dream, that there are no images.. where dream is within ness only.. And just as sound, ness has spatial qualities for which images find no relation to.

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 16:24:51 GMT

The celebration of morning, is the awareness and act of being alive.. of that first breath one takes fresh out of dream.. of the joys of the waking day.. the breath of morning air.. the manner the sun or the clouds move across ones perception..

Bleksol

Fri, 13 Jun 2003 19:49:22 GMT

in my friends.. those dearest to me.. I see such wonder.. such beauty.. that at times.. I feel as if I could cry.. I want to laugh.. jump about.. celebrate that which is within a friend.. I want to hug them.. and revel in them.. and if such bothers you.. just pass on by.. and leave me to myself

shtuff

Fri, 13 Jun 2003 19:30:04 GMT

Do you think to shame me from my discoveries, from the awakened awareness of the manner in which the universe flows across my being. Do you think you can take from me the joy of either those discoveries new, or those discoveries seemingly of that which 'should' be known, and therefore are pointless to some to touch again, even in the shift of perception which creates the newness of the 'old'.. Yes, I taste the undercurrent of your voice which points unto me suggesting my incompetence and stupidity.. the manner in which you dismiss the wonderous as old hat, and you, thick within Jashaen. And no, I am not ashamed, nor taken aback, I am not led to that place for which you exist, I do not suddenly find myself feeling small, nor put in my place. And lastly, no, I do not feel the need to strike back upon you, nor turning to others claiming of them thier stupidity, slapping them down, to make up for that which was pushed upon me.